#poem

8/4/15

clock is ticking
and you are losing
i was waiting
but the time is approaching
for an ending..

she was fearless
but he was bold
but fate decided
they didn't belong

without i realize,

poems are about you,

all about you,

and only you.

life is beautiful,

but sometimes it's a miserable one,

so it's become

a miserably-beautiful life.

a memory that i wish to keep

Salam again

this is me
this is you
this is us
 
Swen said, we are becoming more like each other.. our behaviour almost the same.. we react almost the same.. but instead, i'm becoming more like u.. while u're becoming less like me..


i miss u
argh.... i dh x kesah... xkan la in my own blog xleh nk post my own fav person? u gotta be kidding meeeeee.... -_____-"

persetankan smuaaaaa.... XDDDD

much love,
Salam back.

i really really really like this picture..................... <3

youuuuuuu.... jgn control machooo boleh x??? -_-"

besok test 2 fluid OTL

Assalamualaikum

lama dh tak tulis... tahu sangat.. rindu aku x blog? hehehe............................
Sembang wani, sembanggggggg........

kalau wani dah syg sgt2,
dia akan syg sgt2
dia akan rindu sgt2
dia akan jeles sgt2
dia akan kesah sgt2

this feeling, my boy
this is the first i felt this kind of feeling.......

and guess what, my boy
i love it
i love u
i love to be a part of u
i love everything about u

i can't even imagine what will i be like, without u..

salah...
salah kalau syg sgt
salah kalau rindu sgt
but it's too late, my boy...
can't let u go anymore...

today,
u senyap after 2days, kite gaduh.. pdahal smlm kite dh baik balik dh.. gaduh pn sbb i jeles... please, i mne penah jeles okeyyyyyyyy...... do u know how worried am i? ws xreply, call xangkat, dh mcm cacing kepanasan dh taw x? i thought we are ok already... how come u didnt reply me?

i tgh fikir
u tahu x, u will be living with a psychopath like me? do u notice that? are u sure u want to marry me? u'll be chained forever k... u can't never escape.. i akan buat u rimas ke? will u get bored with me? will u love me til the end like i will do for u? will u keep on missing me thou i'm right beside u? will u be tired with me? will u teach me on how to do things? will u guide me to Allah? will u stay with me til my last breath? will u? will u?

or

u just gonna get tired of me? u just gonna ignore me? u just gonna hate me? u just gonna leave me?

if ur choice is the second one, my boy...

leave me
leave me now
dun give me explanation
just leave
before it's too late
before i can't live without u
before i love u so much
before i care too much
before i'm gonna lose u...

i can't bear the thought of losing u. i'm dead serious. i just can't.
u are the first person who teach me this kind of unconditional love..
and i want to stay in this love, with u, thru thick and thin, forever, til jannah..

O Allah,
guide us thru Ur true path.
give us Ur blessings
ease our way together

jika benar dia untukku, permudahkan jalan kami.
jika benar dia bukan untukku, permudahkan juga jalan kami.

your girl~
MAA

wani merepek meraban sebab stress besok nk test fluid tapi satu pun tak baca lagi..
hi blog.. love u blog, but not more than i love my boy... ^^, bye blog...

#fluid #test2 #waniserabut #MAA #NSS #love

parah

Assalamualaikum...


This is my second final week... I got two more papers left.. May Allah bless..

 How's life?
Well, first week of exam was great coz i was damn so bz with studying, 3papers non stop..
Yeah, the second is a problem...

I think too much
I feel too much
I remember too much

Big problem....
Tgn gatal gile nk g ws dia, nk g call dia, at least dm kt twitter ke
Anything that can connect us, even telegram....

N u know what,
I started searching for his car, whenever n wherever i came out
Like deadly serious
I've been so stupid lately, i believe so..

Dulu mse wan putus cinta, dia duk kire myvi bpe bijik dia jmpe dlm shari
Sama la kite wan, tp aku kire viva r, bukan myvi..
Siap cri number plate same lgi...

Weird enough, aku mcm nmpk dia kt bangi td
Dkt t-junction tu... Senget kpala aku tgk plate k
Tp rse dh btul dh
Aku just hope adik was the one inside it, or maybe he was alone
Who knows, rite?

If Allah wills, eventually,
I will forget him
I will stop counting vivas
I will move on

Knape sakit ni xsama dgn skit dulu
Knape?

The feeling that comes back is the feeling that never left..
Perhaps just i love u so..


Rindu?
Jgn dibilang,
Aku tahu aku,
Aku keliru kau...

May Allah bless, insyaAllah..
#p/s: farihah said, u r a dream, a dream that i miss for a while, n soon will be forgotten, but i told her, u r my dream, my dream that won't turn to reality.. U r my endless dream.... I miss u ❤

fading away

Assalamualaikum
Hi blog
Lama xmsuk sini.... Hermmmm
*pusing tgk keliling blog*
Habuk byk.......hahaha


Biasa aku msuk blog ni, sbb aku ada bnda nk luah, aku ada bnda yg aku nk ckp, in which i knoe, no one will care to listen.. Sbb tu aku post sini..

Twitter dh rmai org
Facebook dh cm pasar mlm
Insta just for pictures
Kdang post gmba kt insta,
Aku xtaw either deep dia tu smpai ke x.. Hopefully smpai la kan..

K back to real story...

Bila dia skrg try nk lupakan aku,
Try nk erase our memories,
Ko rase ape yg aku rasa?
Supposed to be,
Aku rasa hepi la kn?
Kan? Kan? Kan?

Tp tak.. Sekuman pn aku xrasa cmtu
Aku rasa lost, aku rasa dia dh xda
Aku rasa dia tgh fade away from me
Bila dia nk aku, aku stay away
Aku main tarik tali all the time

Tp bila dia xnak dh dgn aku
Sumpah, serious ckp,
Aku mcm nk fade away skali dgn dia
Ya Allah, aku syg dia, aku rindu dia
Tp aku xrasa dia untuk aku
Tu mslh 1st aku

Aku doa, mcm yg ibu suruh,
N guess what, i dreamt both of them
Sorg yg aku syg, yes, he is the one
Sorg lgi, yg family aku syg, bukan aku
Aku bukan nk ckp family aku xleh terima dia
But mybe he just dun suit into my family..
Tu yg aku rasa, tu yg aku fikir
Tp bodohnya di sini,
Knapa aku pikir bnda2 mcm ni?
Knapa aku duk peningkan otak dgn fikiran mcm ni?
Aku nk final esok luse kot...

Aku kluar tgk wyg dgn yg lgi sorg tu aritu
X..bukan berdua, dgn housemate sorg
Klau ko tahu aku,
Ko akn tahu yg aku sensitive giler kt bau
And aku xleh dekat n in close space dgn yg lgi sorg tu
Aku xsuke bau dia, aku xsuke, the act of him sitting next to me
I dun like that.. Serious rasa nk klua giler2

Tp klau dgn dia..........
I'm too comfortable with him
Aku boleh tdo mcm tu je dlm kete dia
Okey, mybe aku ngntuk ke ape la kan
Tp aku bukan pattern yg blh tdo wherever
I just feel safe when he's around

Bodoh...
Ich bin dumm, ich weiss
Ada mamat baik hati nk kt ko,
Tp ko nk mnusia tu jugak

But now,
Dia nk try lupakan aku *fake laugh*
Hahahhaha
Boleh ke??
Done that, screw that ady
U just can't get out of my mind
But mybe u can make me get out from urs..
Mne la tahu kan..
Til then, I'm just gonna sit silently, sit patiently,
Waiting for u to come to me back...

I just damn love u so much
No matter what others said about us
Sbb rasa ni, aku yg rasa, bukan diorg...

Gudluck final
Gudluck for everything...
Thanks awaa...

Assalamualaikum.

P/s: no, I'm not crying.. I just maybe will do later on...n yes, i miss u..