rindu kamooowww!!!

assalamualaikum w.b.t..(xjwb dosa, msuk api neraka..xtaw2..)
ola minna.. olalalalalala... laaaaaa...
siyes, da lame gyler xupdate blog...

sory blog!!!!! gomen!!!!
hayya2.. naseb la dpt blogger cm haku nie.. adoyai...
bz..bz..bz... bz...n zzzzz
bzzzzzzz sesgt...

haku pn xtaw nk habaq apekenamenye kat sini.. hadoyai.. nk citer byk sgt citer2 hotsetupp kott.. ye la, da bpe bulan aku xupdate.. mmg byk la kan2?? hmmmm...

aku ngah practical.. kt gmi..siyes best... suke though skit tgn,kaki sgala bagai.. heee... mama, tlg urut!!  dpt pegang papan LK lgi.. although shaking taim mule2 tuu.. but still besnyeeeeeeee....
feeling dye cm... oooooohhhhhh....okfine.. korg msti xphm.. kn2?? mmg pn.. aku je yg rase....

kesayangankuuuu... 

aku pegi camping!!!! yuhuuuu... best gyler tahap petala kelapan n sterusnye.. adoiii... indahnye alam ciptaan ALLAH... Alhamdulillah, everything goes well.. xda cedera, xda jgkitan kuman, pnyakit maut segala bgai.. xda.. bguih laa... relief sikit kot.. hehe..siyes cntik..
*msuk mood lembut dmai jiwa sikit*
tp, aku pling tacing2 nye bile sume ALG segala bagai nie.. unite... waaaa.. feel like crying.. mcm nk ckp, korg la kwn aku smpai syurgaa.. dooohh.. mane aku nk msuk syurga sorg2.. huuu... xmau aku..lonely nnti... kne tarik reramai msuk syurga.. kalau blh, evryone of alg.. alles.. hehe.. dgn kebijaksanaan diorg sume, dpt la wat campfire wlau terslah prediction..sumpah best, klakar sgala bagai.. sume feeling yg best2 je ade.. n tacing2 je.. sedey2, out.. sgt222222 enjoyyy... nk wat lgi!!! cik PD, orgnize yg lain pulak!!!! nie request niee.. mau2..


beberape pic yg aku suke n sgt memorable.. credit hour to cik Fatin Nabilah... hehe..

on way pegi chilling.. hud pura2 tido.. yea, mmg nmpk REAL..blom smpai pn da penat... =P

crossing the river.. almost everyone is here.. wonderful moment.. ich liebe ALG.. huuuu.. syg korg

nie syahdu2 sikit,, tacing2 sikit.. rugi r.. ABC, nk joinn... tenks imam adli... woaahh.. bgus2.. jom msuk syurga same2..

pic fav... sbb ade akak sesat pkai shawl.. siyes comel.. haha.. hantu kau wani...diam ah..!

hmmmm... nk citer hape agi erk?? ntahahahaha....

owh.. mr dia.. yea, mr dia... ok, confusing.. sy xtaw.. sy xtaw pape... sy xmau taw..
JGN BAGI AKU PERASAN LAAAAAA!!!!! (shouting from on top of a hill)



*trik nafas, hembus..kembang kempiskn idung....*

aku da cukup perasan r.. lemah aku ngn mnusia cm mr dia.. mr dia nie.. eeeiii.. nk belah rase kpala mr dia so that aku ley taw ape yg mr dia fikir2kn.. hadoyaiii... tp, klau belah nnti, dye mati.. xpe2.. bia la dlu..
BIALA BIALA BIALA BIALA BIALAAAAAA....

nk taw.... nk sgt taw.... nk sgt2.... tp, aku pikir possibilities yg ade.. sume2 la...

klau kitorg sme2 suke: yay!!! hepi nye laaaa...hepi gyler.. cm dunia ini ana yg punye..pastu?? ok...so?? ich liebe dich, du libst mich.. und dann?? bkn ley wat pape pn.. bkn ley tunang, kawen others sume pape laa... sbb aku taw dye jnis laki yg mcm mane n i think its not the right time for him to settle down with me coz i'm not ready yet n so do he..  selesaaaaaiiiii... conclusion: no hope, dun give hope.. don't hope...

klau mr dia Xsuke aku: babai.. i'm hurt.. adoi2.. i would never fall in lab again.. i won't do that n do this.. ok, xda point.. cam horang gylaks.. hahadoiiihh.. soooo?? conclusion: aaarrrggghhh...nyesal aku tau bnda nie.. nyesal aku taw feeling mr dia yg sbenar.. nyesal2!!!..


overall conclusion: full setop... xya pikir pape sal mr dia.. directkn mata anda ke lain, minda anda serta hati anda.. yela2.. yelayelayelayela... yelaaaaaaatuuuuu... tawakkal.. ALLAH yg pegang hati aku, bukan mr dia.. ok...understood already...



bismillah..
ya ALLAH, ya Rahman, ya Rahim.. aku memohon kpadaMU ya ALLAH.. jika benar dia utk aku, Kau permudahkan lah jalan kami ya ALLAH.. bantulah kami, tunjukkan lah kami jalan Engkau yg lurus... bntulh kami drp terjebak dlm zina hati, zina lidah, zina perbuatan n others.. ya ALLAH, jika dia bukan utk diriku..Kau bantulah aku menghadapi segala dugaan n cabaran yg mendatang.. kurniakanlah aku kekuatan dalaman utk menghadapi ujian2 Mu.. ya ALLAH, bntulah aku, jgelah hatiku ya ALLAH, jgn bg hatiku dicemari dgn perkara yg tidak Engkau sukai.. Aminn...






p/s: ok, pnjg.. tp, its worth.. i can let everything in my heart.. lntk hang nk paham ke x.. mr dia.. tgh watpe eh skrg... hehe..okbye.. assalamualaikum... (^^,)

to mr dia?? naaaahhhh... imposibru!! coz he donno my blog.. haha..

test yg menyerabuti minda

assalamualaikum, leute!!
huhuhuhu
lame gyler x update.. whaha.. aku bz, hang nk habaq ape??
lolololol.. suka aty aku lar...
urm..bday, daddy, 14 Feb.. hepi bday! malu nk ckp..so, kakak msg je la yea.. hehe
bday, zana, comin soooooonnnn.. tomoro~~ 23 Feb.. lol..
pokai aku nk beli hadiah kat 2 2 org tuuu.. ish3,.. hehe..

was soll ich sprachen ueber??
ich weiss nicht! hehe..
aku ade test pasni.. math.. liebe math, ich liebe dich.. bitte helfen mir..
und dann, i got deutch test.. erkk.. bace sikit2 je smlm... otak, start la remembering! lol...

smlm, yup.. smlm aku stay up.. yela stay up sgt kn.. tido je byk kat dpn bilik study tu though aku da minum 2packet nescafe, sill xberkesan!! lol.. molecule dlm bdn aku da blh attack moleculenescafe n cause me not to sleep. what a smart molecule.. a ke?? bkn byk ke moleculeSSS tu?? hahah.. watever!!

pray 4 me.. still got chemie, deutsch mid term und mechanics.. after today's test is over laaa...
guten tag, leute.. biss dan!

kemalasan yang diragui

salam..guten tag
malas..malas nk tulis..
sgt malas..
malas sgt2..
ape2 pn malas nk buat
still got chemie, german n physics to do...
immer hausaufgaben.
dun u get tired giving us hausaufgaben, lecturers??

huuufff... wanna get free from this life..
chotto matte kudasai!!
anata ga, suki desu..
hahah..
stupid.. dunno wat to say..

chiao.. this post is basically bout nothim.. yeah..
buangmasakaranjekorangbaca
akubajetkorangtuadebanyakwalaupunakutawkorangtusikitje..
lololololoololooololooooololololo..
lntak aku laaaa...
auf wiedersehen... tschuss..

ich bin sehr traurig!!

mahu menangis,

tapi, 

air mata seakan-akan sudah kering,

mahu tersenyum manis,

tapi,

pahit yang terasa,

mahu berlari jauh dari kenyataan,

tapi,

kaki seakan-akan sudah lumpuh..

hanya mampu menadah telinga,

mendengar cerita tentang puteri kayangan kepunyaannya,

hanya mampu memberi kata dorongan yang belum tentu keikhlasannya,

diiringi senyuman pahit yang menghiasi wajah penuh kedukaan,

mencintai tidak semestinya memiliki,

itu kenyataan antara aku dan dia,

dia, kekasihku sampai syurga,

dan aku, sahabat karibnya sampai syurga,

dan aku sedar,

garisan takdir kami tidak akan pernah bertemu...

assalamualaikum.. guten tag! aku bru dpt berita.. yeah.. first from fb tapi, serious, xnk percaya lgsung..but, bile empunye diri da bagitau, what else can i say? nk ckp congratz pn, cam hipokrit je.. so, aku senyap je la.. what happen to me, actually?? ades.. sakit rase hati nie.. kalau dmam, blh la nk ubatkan.. kalau skit hati?? was sollste ich machen? ich weiss nicht.. 

aku harap, aku harap sangat2.. aku xkan show this feeling kat dye.. not in msg, fb or even in class..  mcm mane nk avoid dye?? cmne nk ubati hati kau nie? mcm mane?? bitte, helfen mir!! sume bnda ca xkena je ari nie.. rase nk menangis, tapi xmampu.. aku bodoh la kalau ngs utk laki cm tu..

JANGAN JADI BODOH, wani!!!!!

i dun need a boyfriend!!! maybe  i need a hubby?? hahaha.. ok, wani.. xlawak..

ich liebe itachi!!!

hari tangis sedunia

assalamualaikum.. hallo, freund!! (lemah semangat)
harini, mcm2 jadi.. aduhai.. rase nk quit.. rase nk stop.. sumenye a really negative feeling..

Heute, i got my Chemie's mark.. damn sooooooooo schlecht!!! ich hasse Chemie aber, i muss Chemie studieren weil ich moechte ein Ingineeur werden.. (engineer xtaw btol xeja..mls nk belek google trns) huh.. today.. everything mls... das egal mir..

i'm in my own world.. after i knoe bout that marks.. warte! how i knoe the marks?? opcoz, i'm not like cik diyanah or ainmas, excitedly go n see miss fiza for the wonderful marks.. i'm a little bit shame actually.. yeah, coz i olready knoe that i wun get higher marks.. coz i'm weak in Chemie.. i mean, i'm really weak in Chemie.. no hard feeling..
i text miss fiza, yeah.. i did.. at first, i dun really wan to do that coz i'm not so confidence, but after knowing ainmas n yana olready knoe mine, ofcoz the owner should knoe it too.. n yeah.. i'm very dissapointed.. though i olready knoe that i can't get any higher marks but, opcoz, this heart won't listen..

what make me become even sadder?? coz the dejavu that my mom had.. yeah.. she's the kind that knoe what i'll be doing.. i'm not home.. i'm playing around.. i'm goin' sumwhere else..bla3.. i got sad.. i become happy..anything that didn't seem to be good to me.. she will knoe it.. n yeah.. she did.. she called as soon as i got the text that miss reply that say my marks.. n what else.. that naluri keibuan knoe that sumthing is wrong n without any hesitation.. i told her.. while CRYING... wani, u r a big gurl now but still crying for help from ur mom.. pffffhhhuuu.. i dun care.. she's still my mom.. now n forever..

oh yeah.. since the tears r flowing.. i can't speak that much.. just nodding while saying yes, yes, yes n yes for everything that she said.. its not that i dun want to talk but, i'm afraid if i speak, she'll knoe that i'm crying( though i olready knoe that she knoe.. coz i 'ter'let out that ..sobs... thing.. ) but still, yeah.. i couldn't speak so much.. n she left me with her advice, as usual..i felt a lot better.. much much better.. but, i still dun have any mood that time.. so, i'm just sleeping all day without opening any book.. yeah, sleep.. until almost 7.. forgot to mention earlier, i dun eat enything since morning.. just a cup of coffee in the morning then, nothing until 7pm..

that time, my second rescuer came.. my acu from kedah.. she talks like nothing happen.. greeting me as usual.. n suddenly, she asks, how's life?? n from that moment, i knoe, she olready knoe bout 'that' thing.. yeah, 'that' thing i mention earlier.. hehe..  n i start to spill out everything that i feel.. n i burst out my second round tears.. diz time, its more n more than before..she loves to make jokes n thnx to her, i manage to smile for today.. yeah.. her nasihat??

~ this is just the 1st sem.. work harder for next sem.. n next sem n next sem.. (she keep repeating the next sem) > lame.. hehe.. everybody says that when u want to make ur heart feels better for the mistakes that u have done before.. n i did that olso.. hehe...

~ mybe nie ujian yg ALLAH bg kat kakak.. sblum nie duduk kat tmpt best kat sekolah dulu.. doesn't even care bout anyone else coz i'm alwez on top.. i'm sitting on gold chair in my prev school.. coz all teachers, frens, likes me.. not like actually, but they have hopes in me for me to be a better candidates in spm.. and alwez become their reference.. i actually miss that moment when i become the main thing that everyone cares the most.. n now, who am i?? i'm not even worth to be in ALG.. they r just sooo good, sooo smart, soo intelligent.. n yeah..i'm no one compared to them.. i'm the stupidest in ALG15 n i realize that.. n yeah..i'm taking it in a positive way.. this is ujian that HE gives to me.. i should be glad coz i've experience this.. to be honest, i never experience failure.. not never but seldom.. n the last time would be years ago, mybe when i'm in form 2??

that's a few things that i remember bout what she said to me.. there's lots more but, i'm keeping it as my own little secret.. can i?? so.. what i have to do now?? was??

my bestie.. since standard 1 n still counting... insyaALLAH, until jannah

~ i'm going to work harder n harder.. insyaALLAH
~ i'm really thankful to HIM for giving me this sadness.. i'm goin' to become a more matured girl.. insyaALLAH..
~ please bless me in everything that i'm goin; to do
give me strength.. give me chances, give me success..
~ Alhamdulillah, coz u give me this failure... so that i knoe where i am.. my position n i'm goin' to be someone between the higher score.. its ok though i dun get the highest mark.. coz i know, YOU already knoe what's the best for me..
~insyaALLAH, alles zusammen nach Deutschland fliegen.. kite fly same2.. bkn ko fly sorg2 or aku fly sorg2.. alles zusammen..

nie FRANKFURT, my new class name..insyaALLAH, i'll be there 2years from now..

ya ALLAH, bagi aku kekuatan.. untuk mengharungi semua dugaan yg Engkau berikan.. berikan ape yang terbaik untuk aku.. sesungguhnya, Engkaulah yg Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Mengasihani.. Amin..

i think that's all..maybe.. yeah.. assalamualaikum.. keep smiling though u r crying.. =)

~LiNRa93~