don't judge me!

the stupid me.. the horrible me.. the hurting me.. and that's me..

Thursday, 14 November 2013

Of the me rite now

salam..

hi, blog.. lama xblogging.. da berhabuk, i think.. but i thought dat i shud say something regarding my life now..

yup.. didn't pass the alevel, got band 1 in DSH.. n so, damn perfect?

Allah knows what i don't

and here i am, still in bumi Malaysia.. Malaysia tanah tumpah darahku.. (patriotik la sangaat..)
studying in UNITEN, degree of mechanical engineering.. ( yes, i'm a natural born engineer n will alwez be.. insyaAllah.. may Allah bless.. )
will be studying here for about 4years.. n got special sem, means i can decrease my length of study..

How's UNITEN?
so far so good.. i got lots of new friends here.. been making new friends n planning to still keep in touch with my previous friend, which is at INTEC.. basically, the one who gonna fly this Jan, insyaAllah.. well, maybe i'll be deadly silent person with the one who i dun really like.. for exmple, tut..tut..tut.. haha.. tengok la duluuuuuu...

most interesting thing here?
well.. lots actually..

the tasik in front of ilmu was just sooo damn amazing.. n i browse thru it everyday, since its exactly on my way to the class.. so, ptg2, hirup udara from tasik while going back to hostel, damn amazing! boleh berjiwang karat sekali.. n no one cares! plus, tgk ada the bunga teratai inside the tasik were blooming.. nice view, bangau kaler putih tu pun ada, sometimes... but the most regular thing is the biawak inside, petang2, muncul la.. at first, i thought it was anak buaya, but later, the long tongue.. hish, sjk bile buaya ada long tongue nie.. dats how i realise.. lame wani, lame.. =P

then, what else, hmm.. my classmates.. i'm being close with parvathi aka paru, the only girl in my class after me.. she's ok eventually, but we r being nice with each other, so, i hope.. n i really hope, she can be good friend. i'll be a good friend too,paru!
 n this guy name alex n jay. alex is a good man.. he cares for me n even help me to bring my luggage when i was going back to besut last time. but he keeps on ending his word with 'man', as in i am a 'man' in his eyes, for exmple, that's good man, thanx man,u really help a lot man.. like.. me, i'm a man.. pffftt.. but then, maybe, dat was fine.. i'm pretty sure dat he can be good friend.. hope so..
jay is different.. its not like i hate him or what.. i'm ok with him, but he flirts.. well, even though he didn't flirt with me but somewhat, i felt uneasy bout it. hmm.. well, he talks sooooo softly on the phone.. yup, he called me during the holiday, n his voice is super sexy. not like his voice is naturally sexy, but he make it like dat.. so, i super duper dun really like dat.. n saying that he miss me.. we havent met for so long, like.... pffttt.. sory jay, i hate those stuff..i missing me doesnt mean anything to me.. n i hate those.. dun flirt with me, will ya??
 i got this one eyes-catching friend also.. well, is he a fren already? dunno.. we talked just for important thing, but maybe coz his face looks soo jernih, so, i like to see his face.. well, i'm not sure either he knows my name or not.. but sadly, i only notice him during programming class..then, i tried looking around in another class.. so actually, he is in the same class as i am.. pffttt.. bru realise.. n dun ask me about other guys, i dunno them, sitting always the first or the 2nd row in class, talking with paru n alex mostly wont give me a good connection with other classmates, which is all guys.. but i like it this way, maybe, than being a weirdo, can recognise everyone,let me just be a silent girl here..  well, they'll know how crazy am i later, after spending almost 4years here.. perhaps.. hohoho

the one that looks like angah, yup... dat guy, i dun even knoe his name.. dun want to bother much.. we r not in same class.. but we almost meet each other everyday.. like, a habit to meet him, either in class or in the street.. yes,i miss angah.. n i thought, maybe..maybe if i look at him, i'll miss angah lesser.. but the opposite things happened. when i saw him, i thought,

"kan bagus kalau this is the real angah.. kan bagus kalau betul angah is here..like seriously.. asal muke ko cm angah, eh?" 

so those thought aren't taking me anywhere..i'll be just a person who miss angah damn much but couldnt do anything except scrolling his previous chat n messages n also cry every night due to the 'miss' illness created by my own self to destroy my own self.. like.. whattt??? sooo stupid thing that wani was doing n still doing it.. babooooooo...

Angah, i miss u damn much!!!!!!!!!!

well.. basically, dats my UNITEN's life.. sooo.. will be updating later.. since i got calculus test tomoro.. may Allah bless..

salam


Sunday, 23 June 2013

nach a level

salam...
hallo, leute!!

yea, da kne start ckp german balik daaaahhhh...

jeng3...

A LEVEL DAH HABISSSSS

hooray!!! hooray!!

hepi giles.. tataw la result mcm mane
~bismillah hi tawakkal tu a'lallah.... ~

please... bitte... bitte...

pray for me.. insyaAllah...
may Allah bless me, u n all of us.. amin..

salam

Wednesday, 12 June 2013

the secret behind 12 june

~bak, hj mohamad bin ismail~

salam, people~~

u know u'll miss him when he's gone..
u know u gotta move forward..
u know the fact that u have to live without him anymore
u know that.. u know everything

but still
bak, i miss u so much...

it has been a year since he's gone.. 
yet i can still feel the emptiness inside...

when they (the family members) were having tahlil for bak, they always talk about him
and their sentences will be like, 
"kalau cg mat ada, things will be like this..." 
"kalau bak ada, he will hate/love this..." 

and the house feel empty without him... 
without his cough, which is a usual thing,

whenever i went to bak's house..(we still call the house as bak's house)
he would be laying on the sofa in front of the tv, 
watching rtm, watching forum perdana, watching berita,
his fav channel i think...
 

but now, gone...
its almost a year now... 
we live without him by our side..
i know, everyone feels that, but tend to keep it deep inside...

and today, 
just thinking about him, make me cry..
how i miss u..
and tuk wan didn't seem complete without u..

moge bak ditempatkan dalam kalangan org yg beriman..insyaAllah..

~bak and tuk wan~
~alfatihah~
 salam..
 

Monday, 20 May 2013

this is love

 
 
salam
 
You are imperfectly perfect
I am perfectly imperfect
But we both are perfectly perfect
You are colourly colourless
I am colourlessly coloured
But we both are Colourly coloured
You are patiently impatient
I am impatiently patient
But we both are Patiently patient
You are wrongly right
I am rightly wrong
But we both are Rightly right
You are east
I am west
But we both lead the rest
You are sky
I am earth
But we both make each other’s Universe
You are Fire
I am water
But we both does matter
You are rude
I am happy
But we both together go clappy
You are light
I am dark
Making each others life bright 
 
salam

Friday, 17 May 2013

shoo syuwitt..

salam...

i've read this one cerpen... waaaaaa...
link di sini
bapak ah...bapak ahh...
 bessttt gylerrr!!!!

ibu, nk kawen!!! haha
best kn kalau bleh kawen? 
best kan?

hmm...

kalau da kawen,
sume pun jd ibadah,
sume bnda pun akn dpt pahala..
like seriously..

klau rindu,
klau tetibe teringat,
klau nk text,
klau nk call,
nk dgr suara...
sume dpt pahala..

tp, klau xkawen lgi, sume da jd dosa...
as in... SEMUA... haishh... zina hati pling truk..

ibu, nk kawen.. tp calon kakak tu xmau kawen lgi.. haha
yer, anda ade byk responsibilities..., taw2... n i understand..

wawawa.... hoiii, en anda...
selamat berjaya... n dun miss me.. coz i won't miss u so much.. haha..


lastly, JOM, kite kawen, nk?
ahahahaha

p/s: bajet dye bce je blog aku nie.. haha

salam..