don't judge me!

the stupid me.. the horrible me.. the hurting me.. and that's me..

Tuesday 9 September 2014

please forget me

salam, blog...
fuuuhhh...fuuuhhh... *tiup habuk, tepuk2 sikit*

laaaaaama giler xtulis..hehe.. cam...hmm.. cm awkward la pulak.. ngee~~
long story short, esok ada presentation techcom..yeahh.. cue card xsiap lgi... lalalala~~ wani poyo..

yipeeeeeee... nk borak2 sal ape ehhh..
sal manusia nama Mohamad Amir Adib Ramli
this troublesome kid.. yeah, kid.. younger 1year from me.. well, if wanna count ikut months, xsmpai pn 1taun..but yeah..

Amir Adib,
thanks for the memories.. i'm gonna treasure them in my life time.. not gonna forget it.. yeah, u did give me tears but u did also give me laugh and happiness, so, i thank u sincerely from the bottom of my heart. u will always have a special place in my heart.. ehhh... (tp nnti aku dh ada husben, lain cite ehhh.. i will always, from hujung rmbut smpai hujung kaki, from the deepest place in my heart til the corner, beneath, ats bawah, kiri kanan belong to my future hubby,in which, xtaw pn sapeeeeeeeee... OTL )

aber, but, however,
i dun wanna write bout u in here, amir.. i wanna erase u.. yes, YOU..
i want to erase everything about u.. like we've met before, but i knoe u just as one of the faci, my group member in BTN n also, one of the member in prs, nothing much n nothing less than that.

Amir,
u said u wanna wait for me? may it be 5 years or more, rite?
please knoe this,
i dun want u to wait for me..
i dun want u to remember me..
i dun want u to appear in my dream, whether i'm awake o asleep
i dun want u to be in my hope
i dun want u to be in my mind, almost all the time..

Amir,
find someone better
forget me
continue ur living
be the best in what u r doing, coding is sooo 'amir'.. haha~
stay healthy
take care~~

they said, when you are in love with someone, u will love their flaws..
sorry, i dun love ur flaws, amir.. it's tolerable but i dun love it.
so, sometimes i wonder, did i really love u at the first place? or it's just sympathy? or maybe coz i'm feeling too lonely? if it's not love, i'm so sorry.. didn't mean to do this for u..

no relationship means nothing, some give good experience, some give bad one.. for u to learn and apply to the next relationship..

I'm sorry..
'kesayangan beta'
~LinRa~  

Thursday 13 March 2014

regarding MRS

salam..peepsssss...

ok.. mcm la ada org baca blog ni..haha..
well.. suddenly terasa nk tulis pasal MRS.. yup.. dat one person..

well, MRS, this 20th March will be the 1st anniversary.. so, i was thinking to make a new blog.. n wrote all things about u dat came of my mind.. n i wanna save all the messagessssss dat we text so far..

motif? dunno.. just appreciating u as da one da i like b4 n still do..
huaaarrrgghh... this is embarrassing.. (~0.0)~ lalala..

ok.. just nk emphasize kt sini, i've been thinking always about u..
like always.. forever n always..

the u who came from da stars korean drama..touched me a lot.. there's one scene when she asked her friend, when she can forget the one she love, the Do Min Joon.. since her love one didnt like her dat time and ask her to move on n leave him alone...bla3.. thou he didnt really mean like dat...

Song Yi: How long will it take? until it doesn't hurt to talk about him. How long will it take? Will that day ever come?
Se Mi: When it doesn't hurt to talk about him?
Song Yi: What are you talking about?
Se Mi: You are only thinking about him. You can't stop thinking about him. it's harder to not think about him. But at some point, you will realize that you're thinking about him. Then you think, 'Oh, I was actually thinking about something else until i thought of him'. that's when it doesn't hurt. That means you can have other thoughts once in a while.
Song Yi: you sound like an expert. so how long does it take?
Se Mi: 15 years?
Song Yi: Are you kidding me?
Se Mi: It took me 15 years. It doesn't hurt anymore.



keeet~ (end)

but then da story is a happy ending one.. but it was during the last episode when i cried.. when the Song Yi was crying a river because she misses Do Min Joon so much.. and that remind me of u.. and that time when i miss u so much and even cause Ira to cried too.. haha.. ok.. this is embarrassing..

til then.. salam
bogoshippo~


Monday 24 February 2014

current me?? ngeee...

salam..
annyongggg..~~

well.. skrg tgh cuti.. it's feb n i still got lots of time til jun.. yupp... my holiday is til jun..hehe.. well, i dun wanna take the special sem yet plus duit mara xmasuk lagi... ngeee..bajet nk setel ni dulu la konon.. padahal nk cuti lama2, ternak badan puas2..hehe~

life seems fine.. well.. ok a bit...

GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!!

i got into the dean's list for my first sem... ngeee...besnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

well, didnt really expect dat but alhamdulillah.. Allah knows da best..

will be updating later then..

ilthann.. annyong~
salam