don't judge me!

the stupid me.. the horrible me.. the hurting me.. and that's me..

Sunday 15 February 2015

parah

Assalamualaikum...


This is my second final week... I got two more papers left.. May Allah bless..

 How's life?
Well, first week of exam was great coz i was damn so bz with studying, 3papers non stop..
Yeah, the second is a problem...

I think too much
I feel too much
I remember too much

Big problem....
Tgn gatal gile nk g ws dia, nk g call dia, at least dm kt twitter ke
Anything that can connect us, even telegram....

N u know what,
I started searching for his car, whenever n wherever i came out
Like deadly serious
I've been so stupid lately, i believe so..

Dulu mse wan putus cinta, dia duk kire myvi bpe bijik dia jmpe dlm shari
Sama la kite wan, tp aku kire viva r, bukan myvi..
Siap cri number plate same lgi...

Weird enough, aku mcm nmpk dia kt bangi td
Dkt t-junction tu... Senget kpala aku tgk plate k
Tp rse dh btul dh
Aku just hope adik was the one inside it, or maybe he was alone
Who knows, rite?

If Allah wills, eventually,
I will forget him
I will stop counting vivas
I will move on

Knape sakit ni xsama dgn skit dulu
Knape?

The feeling that comes back is the feeling that never left..
Perhaps just i love u so..


Rindu?
Jgn dibilang,
Aku tahu aku,
Aku keliru kau...

May Allah bless, insyaAllah..
#p/s: farihah said, u r a dream, a dream that i miss for a while, n soon will be forgotten, but i told her, u r my dream, my dream that won't turn to reality.. U r my endless dream.... I miss u ❤

Friday 6 February 2015

fading away

Assalamualaikum
Hi blog
Lama xmsuk sini.... Hermmmm
*pusing tgk keliling blog*
Habuk byk.......hahaha


Biasa aku msuk blog ni, sbb aku ada bnda nk luah, aku ada bnda yg aku nk ckp, in which i knoe, no one will care to listen.. Sbb tu aku post sini..

Twitter dh rmai org
Facebook dh cm pasar mlm
Insta just for pictures
Kdang post gmba kt insta,
Aku xtaw either deep dia tu smpai ke x.. Hopefully smpai la kan..

K back to real story...

Bila dia skrg try nk lupakan aku,
Try nk erase our memories,
Ko rase ape yg aku rasa?
Supposed to be,
Aku rasa hepi la kn?
Kan? Kan? Kan?

Tp tak.. Sekuman pn aku xrasa cmtu
Aku rasa lost, aku rasa dia dh xda
Aku rasa dia tgh fade away from me
Bila dia nk aku, aku stay away
Aku main tarik tali all the time

Tp bila dia xnak dh dgn aku
Sumpah, serious ckp,
Aku mcm nk fade away skali dgn dia
Ya Allah, aku syg dia, aku rindu dia
Tp aku xrasa dia untuk aku
Tu mslh 1st aku

Aku doa, mcm yg ibu suruh,
N guess what, i dreamt both of them
Sorg yg aku syg, yes, he is the one
Sorg lgi, yg family aku syg, bukan aku
Aku bukan nk ckp family aku xleh terima dia
But mybe he just dun suit into my family..
Tu yg aku rasa, tu yg aku fikir
Tp bodohnya di sini,
Knapa aku pikir bnda2 mcm ni?
Knapa aku duk peningkan otak dgn fikiran mcm ni?
Aku nk final esok luse kot...

Aku kluar tgk wyg dgn yg lgi sorg tu aritu
X..bukan berdua, dgn housemate sorg
Klau ko tahu aku,
Ko akn tahu yg aku sensitive giler kt bau
And aku xleh dekat n in close space dgn yg lgi sorg tu
Aku xsuke bau dia, aku xsuke, the act of him sitting next to me
I dun like that.. Serious rasa nk klua giler2

Tp klau dgn dia..........
I'm too comfortable with him
Aku boleh tdo mcm tu je dlm kete dia
Okey, mybe aku ngntuk ke ape la kan
Tp aku bukan pattern yg blh tdo wherever
I just feel safe when he's around

Bodoh...
Ich bin dumm, ich weiss
Ada mamat baik hati nk kt ko,
Tp ko nk mnusia tu jugak

But now,
Dia nk try lupakan aku *fake laugh*
Hahahhaha
Boleh ke??
Done that, screw that ady
U just can't get out of my mind
But mybe u can make me get out from urs..
Mne la tahu kan..
Til then, I'm just gonna sit silently, sit patiently,
Waiting for u to come to me back...

I just damn love u so much
No matter what others said about us
Sbb rasa ni, aku yg rasa, bukan diorg...

Gudluck final
Gudluck for everything...
Thanks awaa...

Assalamualaikum.

P/s: no, I'm not crying.. I just maybe will do later on...n yes, i miss u..