don't judge me!

the stupid me.. the horrible me.. the hurting me.. and that's me..

Monday 20 May 2013

this is love

 
 
salam
 
You are imperfectly perfect
I am perfectly imperfect
But we both are perfectly perfect
You are colourly colourless
I am colourlessly coloured
But we both are Colourly coloured
You are patiently impatient
I am impatiently patient
But we both are Patiently patient
You are wrongly right
I am rightly wrong
But we both are Rightly right
You are east
I am west
But we both lead the rest
You are sky
I am earth
But we both make each other’s Universe
You are Fire
I am water
But we both does matter
You are rude
I am happy
But we both together go clappy
You are light
I am dark
Making each others life bright 
 
salam

Friday 17 May 2013

shoo syuwitt..

salam...

i've read this one cerpen... waaaaaa...
link di sini
bapak ah...bapak ahh...
 bessttt gylerrr!!!!

ibu, nk kawen!!! haha
best kn kalau bleh kawen? 
best kan?

hmm...

kalau da kawen,
sume pun jd ibadah,
sume bnda pun akn dpt pahala..
like seriously..

klau rindu,
klau tetibe teringat,
klau nk text,
klau nk call,
nk dgr suara...
sume dpt pahala..

tp, klau xkawen lgi, sume da jd dosa...
as in... SEMUA... haishh... zina hati pling truk..

ibu, nk kawen.. tp calon kakak tu xmau kawen lgi.. haha
yer, anda ade byk responsibilities..., taw2... n i understand..

wawawa.... hoiii, en anda...
selamat berjaya... n dun miss me.. coz i won't miss u so much.. haha..


lastly, JOM, kite kawen, nk?
ahahahaha

p/s: bajet dye bce je blog aku nie.. haha

salam..

Wednesday 15 May 2013

jiwang karat #5

salam

suddenly thinking of this...
sho shuweett...

"could u please be my MRS? i'm dying to get one for my name.."

uuu... sape paham, dye paham la..
sape xpaham... hmmm... pikir sndiri...
coz i'm sarkastik in my own way...
yeah....
ways dat no one really understand me.. haha...








salam...

Tuesday 14 May 2013

...

salam

BILA KITA PUTUS ASA...

....

aku
kau
dia
kita
mereka
...

bila kita putus asa.... *sigh*

astaghfirullah..

salam

tomolooww epic day


salam..

tomolow.. aka tomoro...
i got chemis exam.. paper unit 8.. consist of unit 4&5..
how suweet... =,=

but now, i'm dying!! i'm dying coz of stress..

soooo.... stressssss... seriyes.. nie xtipu...
sgt stress.. until... hm...
until i cried when mom called me just now...
haiyaa.. wani being wani....
naseb baik.. i was drying my hair.. while talking to phone...
n yana came out from her room... n as i think she might saw my tears,
i began to move my wet hair in front.. ok, da mcm pontianak, derrr...

talked to mom.. but i dun think she realized i was crying... well..
awesome, wani~~~ LOL..

n i'm stress... for tomoro's paper...
n MRS didn't text me.... since last time, da 2 ari..

wani, u need to live without him... if not, if things suddenly goes wrong.. haaa...
taim  tu bru nk menyesuaikan diri.. nononononono~~
soo, bia je la.. tggu dye text dlu.. malaiihh da nk lyn...

gotogo..
chemis waiting... i love chemistry... but dunno..either i will still love it after tomoro's paper or not..~~
dunno..dunnoo.... (~..~)

~~ O Allah, if U take me to it... U will make me pass thru it, rite? ~~




 


salam...  *amantanpaperang* (read: peace no war)

Tuesday 7 May 2013

and they said, i can do IT..

salam..

chaotic
hidup da xmenentu.. ntah hape2 laaa...
Alevel.. tomoro.. BIGGG daaayyy...
n now, i dunno what's goin on..
feel like killing myself... yeah... i wish...

and angah said last night,
semangat, semangat... jgn surrender...
danke, angah!!.. haha... then, he falls asleep.. ceeehhh...
igtkn nk bg kata2 smgt lgi.. ish3..

and ibu called last night..
kakak, 2days more..
how's ur preparation??
errrkkk... likeee... errmmmm..
dunno... feel extremely nervous..
its like..
ha sudah...ha sudah... esk alevel.. ha sudah
what shud i do... LOL..

and to Allah we repent n to Allah, we seek..

jgn la seek Allah taim perlu je kn... it has to be alwez.. i mean it, alwez seek for Allah no matter in bad time, hard time or happy time.. but then, hmm.. manusia, alpa n lupa.. seek Allah taim nk sumthing je..(dats me).. seek Allah taim nk minx ampun, da wat salah.. taim nk repent la kononnye... KONONnye laa...

but then, Allah stills listen altho u only seek HIM when u want n abandon HIM when u want.. haishh.. poor ALLAH for having me as HIS hamba.. i'll be a better muslim.. insyaAllah..

O Allah, help me go thru this Alevel..
insyaAllah, i can do it but with UR help..
insyaAllah..
campakkan ketenangan dlm hati aku mse taim nk jwb exam..
and everything will be fine.. insyaAllah, if Allah wills..
Amin..amin...amin..

tomoro, chemis unit7, aja2 fighting...!!

salam ceria walau muka da xceria.. hmmm... 

Monday 6 May 2013

i'm returning home

salam

i'm returning to U..
so please, accept me..
i'm begging for forgiveness from U
so, please, show me true ways..
Allah knows, U knows...

Wednesday 1 May 2013

jiwang karat #4

he n she were best friends that act like a couple...

when suddenly he thought that he could not live without her...
so, he decided that he wanted to tell her about his true feeling..
but he was afraid... several possibilities keep on holding him back from telling her about his feeling..

"what if she won't be my friend anymore after she knows my feeling?"
"what if she doesn't want to talk to me anymore?"
"what if she tries to find other friend and doesn't want to be friend with me anymore?"
"what if she tries to stay away from me?"
"what if she goes away and never turns back..?"
"what if....?"
"what if....?"

he held back his feeling and tried to act like a good friend to her...
years after years past..
they are now in 20's...
but still he thought that he will lose her if he tells her about his feeling..

at one moment, she came to him..
"i'm getting married in one month. John asked me to marry him to complete his life. he told me that he can't live without me."
He smiled... while holding back his feeling.. he controlled his voice..
"oh, really? that's great!"

and the wedding day comes...
he went there and saw her in her wedding dress. she looks so beautiful.

"i want to tell u something. do u have a minute?"
"yeah, sure."

he stood on his one knee in front of her. placed her hand on his. he watched her face while trying to gather his strength.

"i want to tell u something since today is ur wedding day. maybe this is the first and the last time i will talk about this."

she was about to say something..

"no, let me finish my words first. do u still remember the time we spend together? when we are in high school? when we are in college? until now.. i was too coward last time but today, although i know that it is too late already, i still want u to know my true feeling. I LOVE U.." he stood on his feet. Then walk towards the door. When he was trying to reach the door knob, he heard her crying.

"do u know how long i've been waiting to hear those words from u? do u know that years had past with me keeping my feeling deep down inside my heart. i don't want to lose u too. but its too late already.. i'm sorry..."

p/s: never hold back ur feeling.. perhaps he/she feel the same about u.. or else, u will feel regret forever..

p/s 2: to do or not to do.. the result varies

sorry for my bad english... =)