ich bin sehr traurig!!

mahu menangis,

tapi, 

air mata seakan-akan sudah kering,

mahu tersenyum manis,

tapi,

pahit yang terasa,

mahu berlari jauh dari kenyataan,

tapi,

kaki seakan-akan sudah lumpuh..

hanya mampu menadah telinga,

mendengar cerita tentang puteri kayangan kepunyaannya,

hanya mampu memberi kata dorongan yang belum tentu keikhlasannya,

diiringi senyuman pahit yang menghiasi wajah penuh kedukaan,

mencintai tidak semestinya memiliki,

itu kenyataan antara aku dan dia,

dia, kekasihku sampai syurga,

dan aku, sahabat karibnya sampai syurga,

dan aku sedar,

garisan takdir kami tidak akan pernah bertemu...

assalamualaikum.. guten tag! aku bru dpt berita.. yeah.. first from fb tapi, serious, xnk percaya lgsung..but, bile empunye diri da bagitau, what else can i say? nk ckp congratz pn, cam hipokrit je.. so, aku senyap je la.. what happen to me, actually?? ades.. sakit rase hati nie.. kalau dmam, blh la nk ubatkan.. kalau skit hati?? was sollste ich machen? ich weiss nicht.. 

aku harap, aku harap sangat2.. aku xkan show this feeling kat dye.. not in msg, fb or even in class..  mcm mane nk avoid dye?? cmne nk ubati hati kau nie? mcm mane?? bitte, helfen mir!! sume bnda ca xkena je ari nie.. rase nk menangis, tapi xmampu.. aku bodoh la kalau ngs utk laki cm tu..

JANGAN JADI BODOH, wani!!!!!

i dun need a boyfriend!!! maybe  i need a hubby?? hahaha.. ok, wani.. xlawak..

ich liebe itachi!!!

hari tangis sedunia

assalamualaikum.. hallo, freund!! (lemah semangat)
harini, mcm2 jadi.. aduhai.. rase nk quit.. rase nk stop.. sumenye a really negative feeling..

Heute, i got my Chemie's mark.. damn sooooooooo schlecht!!! ich hasse Chemie aber, i muss Chemie studieren weil ich moechte ein Ingineeur werden.. (engineer xtaw btol xeja..mls nk belek google trns) huh.. today.. everything mls... das egal mir..

i'm in my own world.. after i knoe bout that marks.. warte! how i knoe the marks?? opcoz, i'm not like cik diyanah or ainmas, excitedly go n see miss fiza for the wonderful marks.. i'm a little bit shame actually.. yeah, coz i olready knoe that i wun get higher marks.. coz i'm weak in Chemie.. i mean, i'm really weak in Chemie.. no hard feeling..
i text miss fiza, yeah.. i did.. at first, i dun really wan to do that coz i'm not so confidence, but after knowing ainmas n yana olready knoe mine, ofcoz the owner should knoe it too.. n yeah.. i'm very dissapointed.. though i olready knoe that i can't get any higher marks but, opcoz, this heart won't listen..

what make me become even sadder?? coz the dejavu that my mom had.. yeah.. she's the kind that knoe what i'll be doing.. i'm not home.. i'm playing around.. i'm goin' sumwhere else..bla3.. i got sad.. i become happy..anything that didn't seem to be good to me.. she will knoe it.. n yeah.. she did.. she called as soon as i got the text that miss reply that say my marks.. n what else.. that naluri keibuan knoe that sumthing is wrong n without any hesitation.. i told her.. while CRYING... wani, u r a big gurl now but still crying for help from ur mom.. pffffhhhuuu.. i dun care.. she's still my mom.. now n forever..

oh yeah.. since the tears r flowing.. i can't speak that much.. just nodding while saying yes, yes, yes n yes for everything that she said.. its not that i dun want to talk but, i'm afraid if i speak, she'll knoe that i'm crying( though i olready knoe that she knoe.. coz i 'ter'let out that ..sobs... thing.. ) but still, yeah.. i couldn't speak so much.. n she left me with her advice, as usual..i felt a lot better.. much much better.. but, i still dun have any mood that time.. so, i'm just sleeping all day without opening any book.. yeah, sleep.. until almost 7.. forgot to mention earlier, i dun eat enything since morning.. just a cup of coffee in the morning then, nothing until 7pm..

that time, my second rescuer came.. my acu from kedah.. she talks like nothing happen.. greeting me as usual.. n suddenly, she asks, how's life?? n from that moment, i knoe, she olready knoe bout 'that' thing.. yeah, 'that' thing i mention earlier.. hehe..  n i start to spill out everything that i feel.. n i burst out my second round tears.. diz time, its more n more than before..she loves to make jokes n thnx to her, i manage to smile for today.. yeah.. her nasihat??

~ this is just the 1st sem.. work harder for next sem.. n next sem n next sem.. (she keep repeating the next sem) > lame.. hehe.. everybody says that when u want to make ur heart feels better for the mistakes that u have done before.. n i did that olso.. hehe...

~ mybe nie ujian yg ALLAH bg kat kakak.. sblum nie duduk kat tmpt best kat sekolah dulu.. doesn't even care bout anyone else coz i'm alwez on top.. i'm sitting on gold chair in my prev school.. coz all teachers, frens, likes me.. not like actually, but they have hopes in me for me to be a better candidates in spm.. and alwez become their reference.. i actually miss that moment when i become the main thing that everyone cares the most.. n now, who am i?? i'm not even worth to be in ALG.. they r just sooo good, sooo smart, soo intelligent.. n yeah..i'm no one compared to them.. i'm the stupidest in ALG15 n i realize that.. n yeah..i'm taking it in a positive way.. this is ujian that HE gives to me.. i should be glad coz i've experience this.. to be honest, i never experience failure.. not never but seldom.. n the last time would be years ago, mybe when i'm in form 2??

that's a few things that i remember bout what she said to me.. there's lots more but, i'm keeping it as my own little secret.. can i?? so.. what i have to do now?? was??

my bestie.. since standard 1 n still counting... insyaALLAH, until jannah

~ i'm going to work harder n harder.. insyaALLAH
~ i'm really thankful to HIM for giving me this sadness.. i'm goin' to become a more matured girl.. insyaALLAH..
~ please bless me in everything that i'm goin; to do
give me strength.. give me chances, give me success..
~ Alhamdulillah, coz u give me this failure... so that i knoe where i am.. my position n i'm goin' to be someone between the higher score.. its ok though i dun get the highest mark.. coz i know, YOU already knoe what's the best for me..
~insyaALLAH, alles zusammen nach Deutschland fliegen.. kite fly same2.. bkn ko fly sorg2 or aku fly sorg2.. alles zusammen..

nie FRANKFURT, my new class name..insyaALLAH, i'll be there 2years from now..

ya ALLAH, bagi aku kekuatan.. untuk mengharungi semua dugaan yg Engkau berikan.. berikan ape yang terbaik untuk aku.. sesungguhnya, Engkaulah yg Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Mengasihani.. Amin..

i think that's all..maybe.. yeah.. assalamualaikum.. keep smiling though u r crying.. =)

~LiNRa93~

ich bin traurig. du kennen oder nicht??

assalamualaikum
hari nie.. erm.. let see.. new class, new classmates, new lecturer.. yeah.. everything is new.. hope that i'll get new spirit to study n blah3..
i was caught red handed yesterday.. huhuhu.. HE finally knows that i unfriend with him on fb.. lololololo.. asal bru taw skrg?? nmpk sgt xkesah kat aku.. lorrr... wth.. ok, now, he's a fren of course.. still, i dunno what reason that i can give to him, the reason that i unfriend him.. why? why? why? plis think for me, bitte!! hehe...
in a deep sadist emotion today.. opcoz la coz He dun even bother me n buat mcm kitorg xknl.. okfine,,, we r no longer fren.. urghh.it hurts when he pretend that he didn't c me n just pass by me.. lol.. my heart pains.. nenonenoneno..ambulance, help me!!
omo~~ was soll ich machen?? ich weiss nicht!!! ich kann nicht denken... du muss mir helfen!!

past is past.. hope to built new relationship with him, just as ordinary fren.. perhaps.. yeah,perhaps..
there's someone that i currently thinking of.. omooo~~ nein!!! ich mochte nicht denken.. ok, grammar tunggang langgang..huhuhu... viel spass.. i'm tired.. sleepy olso..
oh yeah, chukae, Fatin Nabilah ~~ for that german test!! u r owesome!! keep increasing my respect to u.. omo~~ pacah sudah rhsia Fatin..huhu.. its a good news la fatin... glad to be ur fren.. teach me next time..
'ibu, Fatin yg ajak kakak stay up tu kan, dpt tinggi german.. kakak?? erk.. xtaw lagi.. dun wory, result smpai kat uma.. haha.. letak frame ye.. entittled, result ank yg am schlechten.. yeah2..i know.. i'm worst...

kay, keep smiling.. auf wiedersehen...

kegeramanku...

assalamualaikum...
ergghh.. today, nothing goes on perfectly.. dunno why, i started to hate someone.. gosshhh!! please help me!! i dun want any enemy.. really sad today, my heart hurts so much, just for a simple thing, how could that someone do that?? yeah, mybe i'm taking it seriously, but, hello, i got heart, okay?? i got feeling also, so, its normal for being hurt.. erghh... wateva..may ALLAH bless in wateva i do..

okeh.. release sikit tension.. fine..keep smiling though u r in badmood.. it might help, a little bit, mybe?? dunno, dun care..dun want to care.. tschuss..

azam tahun baru.. kekeke..

assalamualaikum.. my first post in 2012..
my azam for this year??
hope can make a more beautiful blog at least for my self.. dun care what other think about it as long as i'm happy with it.. haha.. esk da nk msuk intec.. huaaaaa.. i'm not sure either i'm fully ready or not to face these new challenges.. ahh.. what should i do?? may ALLAH bless.. HE knows the best for me.. fighting!! hehe..
list of my AZAMs: insyaALLAH termakbul la
~i wanna be someone better!
~i wanna increase my high!
~i wanna decrease y weight!
~i wanna study hard
~i wanna be stronger emotionally.. dun cry easily,wani! i know u can do it...
~i wanna get rid of bad influence in my life.. ALLAH, please make me stronger..

yeah.. i hope, insyaALLAH.. oh yeah, n i'll still keep smiling all the time.. coz that's what my parent did for the first time when they saw me, when i was born in 1993.. so, i should cherish the 1st thing that they did to me, rite?? hehe..

oh yeah, i got new passion, i'm in love with nickhun.. heh.. tut mir leid, fatin nabilah.. i can't help it, he's sooo cute!! hehe.. dun wory, we'll be his fan together.. huhu..

yeah, for now, tht's the end i ges.. tschuss, everyone.. keep smilling n happy new year!! may ALLAH bless.. *hugs n kisses*