dear MAA

salam...


Dear you,

Mencintai perempuan yang gemar menulis.
Kau akan tahu.
Kau harus bersikap lebih manis.
Kerana kata-kata baginya adalah candu.
Serupa rindu yang mampu ia genggam berlama-lamanya waktu.

Mencintai perempuan yang gemar menulis.
Kau seharusnya bersyukur.
Kerana seburuk apapun sikapmu.
Akan tetap ia abadikan namamu.
Dalam setiap goresan fikirannya.
Ya, kau akan abadi.
Baginya kau abadi.

Mencintai perempuan yang gemar menulis
Kau harus (setidaknya) rajin membaca.
Kerana seringkali, diamnya adalah alat.
Untuk ia tuangkan dalam tulisan khidmat.
Dari sana kau tahu.
Bahawa sesungguhnya ia gemar berkata.
Hanya saja, bukan lewat di bibir indahnya.

Mencintai perempuan yang gemar menulis.
Kau harus berhati-hati.
Kerana bila kau membuatnya sakit hati.
Kau akan terkejut.
Betapa tulisannya lebih dari sekadar menghiris nurani.
Ia mampu membuatmu sekejap 'mati'.

Mencintai perempuan yang gemar menulis.
Kau harus menghargai setiap titis tintanya.
Kerana selain buah fikir, itu juga adalah separuh hidupnya.
Seperti juga kau, yang dicintainya.

(kopipes from: fb)

Mencintai aku pula,
it's never an expected journey...
so please be patient,
with my attitude
with my anger
with my mouth
with my heart
with my weaknesses
with me ....


i hope, we will end up together, eventually..

it's a long road, MAA, i believe so... but insyaAllah, it will be a worthy one..

please stay.
til the end.

salam

is it possible?

Salam

is it possible?
for someone to love me THAT much?


is it possible?
for someone like me to accept that much of love?


is it possible?
that someone actually loves me from the bottom of his heart?


is it possible?
that's it's actually happening to me?
that it suddenly occur that someone actually like me?
that abrupt change of being not in love, to being in love with me?


is it possible?
that someone actually cares?
that someone actually accept the me? the whole me?


this is an overwhelming feeling. i never expect someone, like a human in this massive world, can actually like me? coz i'm not a lovable person. i'm not that attractive. i'm nobody.

so tell me,
how come? how possible? how much? how long?
will he loves me?

i admit, i'm a person with a very high self-confidence, sometimes not even in the right place where i should be confident with. But my self-confidence doesn't include my feeling of being lovable. i'm positively sure that no one will love me if not for something. like u will only 'love' me, when u need something from me. 'love' as in u need something from me, so u need to 'like' me.
 
but it's a different thing with parent and siblings.. coz they are those person that brought me up. i'm talking about someone, who is a stranger, who doesn't have any relationship, a completely-clueless-stranger, who suddenly, strangely, fall in love with me? as in with Wani? with this Syazwani?

yeah, what kind of nonsense is that right.....unless...unless...that person has something that he/she wants from me. u want notes? u want books? u want to copy assignment? u want me to help u in project? u want someone to hear your problem? u want me to solve ur problem? u want treats?
sooo..... that's how u should like me, aren't u? coz u need something.. give n take, right?

so, what happened is..
how can someone loves u without all the reasons?
i mean, no reason at all? he just simply love u.. that surely doesn't make sense right? kan? so, that's what i'm debating.. coz i know, when someone ws me, msg me, dm me, pm me, or do any connection with me, it's because he/she wants something right.. not because of me..

so, in conclusion?
i'm a thing that connect them to the thing that they want.
isn't it?
kan?
 (^_^) v

Salam back. 

#poem

do you know what hurts the most?

YOU, without ME

and

ME, without YOU

the vid that u make for me
i shall cherish it til the end of our story

NSS <3 MAA