Assalamualaikum.
Hi, it’s been a long time since my last entry,kn? I think last one was in May? Soo much things happened in between unfortunately... 😅
So what’s new?
Tanggal 19th Nov 2027 marks the ending for my 4 years relationship with Mohamad Amir Adib.
Sounds new?
Naaaa.. we broke up couple of time already before.. but why this one seems so real? Maybe because Adib finally found the girl that he’s searching for?
Coz the reason why he broke up with me is: distance and he met someone new.
That is a total different excuses and reasons from the past 4years. So this is why I believe that this is the ultimate ending (maybe).
But he hurts me... deep enough, and it’s still bleeding.. 💔
“I bukan nak mintak izin you utk break up, I dh klua drp hidup you”
“I dah walk away from your life long before you knew it”
“Kite tak bahagia pun sekarang ni”
“Maybe we should just stop”
Damn, these just pierce my heart again and again. Flesh wounds, fresh and bleeding all over 💔
So hi, Adib. Apparently writing your name still give me the shiver, the nervousness, the fluttering..
How’s that girl? Pretty? Kind? Just the way you want her to be? Okay tak? I tgk gmba yg nik bg kat i, she looks pretty... maybe both of u suit each other. I hate to say this but, congratulations. Maybe she’s the one for you. Well I hope she is.
The pain that you gave me, well it’s a flesh wound so it surely gonna take some time before it heals. Tp I dh boleh cakap psal ur current girlfriend ni so rsenye it’s getting better. I just tak sangka, that we finally end our relationship, the almost 4-years-relationship. But you know what, I wrote this in my previous entries in this blog, that I’m just a ‘penjaga jodoh orang’. So just maybe, it’s time to give you to the correct person that you belong to. But, honestly saying,I macam xredha sgt.. hahahaha... coz I love u damn much already.
Tp the most important thing here is your happiness, Adib.. believe me I would cross hell for your happiness.. so being heart broken ni ape la sangat.. as long as you are happy.. pasal meroyan apa semua tu biasa la, pompuan mcm I ni mmg payah sikit nk terima kenyataan but look at me now, ok je kan.. nangis 2-3 hari tu biasa la.. smpai bile je i akan nangis.. one time later, i akan stop jugak.. dun wory bout me.. syazwani mmg biasa mcm ni.. lekkkk... 😆 mcm la u kesah pasal i kann... hahahahah.. SILLYYYY 😅... jangan.kesah.pasal.i.. please
Macam biasa, i akan ambik masa to move on.. dun wory, lama2 ok la.. hahaha.. biasa dh mcm ni..
Tapi i nak cite pasal ape yg keep on lingering on my mind atm, igt tak yg kite klua tgk wyg mse i dtg uniten sbb competition fyp? I igt I rindu gile kat u mse tu, maybe around 2weeks kot xjmpe sbb i dh hbis bljr so blik besut la.. I igt I tny you,
“Do you love me?”
“Yes”
“You nak kawen dengan i ke tak?”
“Nak”
Damn dude, that feels...........wonderfully amazing. I was in cloud nine because of your simple but sincere answers. But little do i know, that time you mesti tgh fikir pasal ur current girlfriend kan? Maybe u fikir, which one of us is better? What should be the best answer for my question? What should i say? Allahu, mesti stress kan? Damn, sorry you.. I cam bodoh sgt tny soalan mcm tu.. sorry.. i truly am..
Bagus adib, you’ve made a good decision by throwing me and keeping her. I byk salah kt u and i rse i xkan dpt jd a good wife for you pun sbb selalu melawan u and all.. sorry, u wasted 4years with me. I’m sorry. I truly am.. but klau dapat putarkan masa, i would still choose u all over, and i wanna go thru this fluttering, heart breaking moments you gave me.. coz just maybe, these were the times that I thought I still have my heart attached. But if u can turn back the time, i hope u wouldn’t choose me again.
For the past years, ego i tinggi mencanak naik kan? Maybe makin tggi sekarang sbb dh broken heart.. hahaha.. masak la sape yg selepas you... jap, ada ke? Damnn... cmne dia nk kawal i? Hahahahha.. payah dgn attitude cam setan i nie.. let’s not go there k.. i knew I’m worst than anyone can ever think off.. ergh, sometimes I can’t even coop with my own self, cmne org nk coop with me kan?
K dh byk meroyan pasal bnda ngarut.. 😅
Damn Adib, i love you. I will always do. Thanks for the memories. Please live happily ever after. I forgive you tho u didn’t ask for any forgiveness. Good luck! Jaga dia leklok.
