Salam.
I just thought I shud say something regarding what happened.
I mean, something was missing, I guess.. I think so..
I mean, it wasn't enough. I didn't convey my message in a proper manner so you'll understand.. I'm not even sure either you understand the meaning behind them or not..
Just a few clarifications here...
Yes, it's true. I felt deeply in lost when I lost you. I did and I still am being lost. I admit, I was so proud to choose my friends over you.. I believe that my friends were friends for life and I won't have any other opportunities to have this kind of friendship again with any other people. I thought boyfriend will come and go, love with be fluctuated here and there, and sometimes, something happen so love is lost in between. However I admit that I was wrong. It was completely different when I had you and after I lost you. Yep, I have my friends but they aren't always there like you did. I have my friends but sometimes they are busy with their own boyfriends and girlfriends. I have my friends, but I had no one to share problems with coz I'm their place where they dump all their problems to without even caring what's mine. But really, coz they maybe thought that I'm cool or what not but I have my own issues too and guess what, you are the only one that really hears what I think of, my insecurities, my problems and even small issues. You're always there and ready to help me, gives solutions and even nag at me. Sometimes you're damn annoying when you nagged at me all along the way, but screw me, coz everything that you said are real and true.. I've no objection to that. I adore you but I sometimes hummed the song played in the car and pretended that I didn't hear what you were saying, hoping that you will eventually stopped but instead I received another nagging since I was being disrespectful towards you. What a day, I thought so. But in this moment, believe me when I said, I miss those. Very. Much.
You told about that girl, the one you're trying to have a relationship with and you told me, she's not ready to marry yet since she thought of traveling with her friends after graduation while working first. Instead of traveling with her future husband ( in which in this case, maybe you), she choosed to travel with her friends more. Remember what I replied you?
"Don't worry, eventually people will know your value when they lose you. But that was the hard way of knowing. Give some time to that girl, she will grow more mature and eventually she'll know, that love some how will make everything become righteous and complete whatever missing. Give her some time. Friends will only be there until your university life, in ur working career, you'll have other colleagues and lots of people will come and go in your life. Those who stay till the end, are only your family, husband, wife and really close friends."
But little do you know, I hope, she will pick you and become your wife, InsyaAllah, I'll sincerely pray for both of you. She'll grow more matured and think about future instead of the joy that she wishes to have upon graduation. I sincerely hope that. You'll be in good, caring hands later on. You'll grow to be a better person, well I'm not saying that you're a bad person, you have no flaw in my eyes. You'll be fine. You'll do great. InsyaAllah.
As for Syazwani, she'll blossom fully in her own way. InsyaAllah.
With this, I sincerely wish you goodbye.
Your wani.
